He said, “But I will be with you, and this shall be the sign for you, that I have sent you: when you have brought the people out of Egypt, you shall serve God on this mountain.” Exodus 3:12 (esv)
I have been looking through Exodus at the story of Moses and have discovered a connection with him I never noticed in the past. It wasn’t because of all the obvious reasons. I haven’t spotted a burning bush. I haven’t let His people go. I haven’t performed signs and wonders on God’s behalf.
Moses lived among royalty growing up and his life was full of social events. But his life drastically changed and he ended up living as a simple shepherd for forty years. His only audience to speak to–or with–for most of his days was a herd of sheep. A herd of animals doesn’t provide a whole lot of opportunity to hone your skills in the area of conversation starting or smooth talking.
In May it will be five years since my life drastically changed and my husband walked on to Heaven. He wasn’t only my husband, but my best friend. We loved to have deep conversations about a variety of topics. We also enjoyed moments of peaceful solitude and we were content to sit hand in hand with not a single word spoken between us. Our exchanges throughout our day brought me the assurance someone else in the world was interested in my thoughts and my day to day life. It made a huge difference in my life. He fostered confidence in me and my abilities. I miss it so much and long for our conversations.
Like Moses, I do not have many opportunities to have deep conversations. It has been one of the hardest things for me to adjust to as a widow. Honestly, it isn’t the number of conversations I am missing, it is the the person I had the conversations with.
Moses’ example encourages me to be honest with God and talk to Him about the hard places. God acknowledged Moses’ words and provided other ways around Moses’ struggles. Among the reassurances I discovered two promises that brought me hope.
- When He assigns you a task and a purpose, He will use your inabilities and turn them into His possibilities.
- He will walk you through the transitions that make you bend so far you feel as if you might break into a million pieces. He will stand you back up as you worship Him in the midst of the breaking.
Dear Heavenly Father, You see our heartbreak and our deepest longings. Thank you for loving us, knowing us and walking with us through our heartache. In Your Mighty Name, Amen.