Because the Lord is my Shepherd, I have everything I need….Psalm 23:1 (TLB)
It’s Springtime! Where I live, we are excited about seeing the grass turning green, new leaves coming out on the trees, flowers beginning to bloom, and even some warmer days. It is refreshing to begin this “new season”.
A “new season” – oh, there are still so many days I wish I could really get excited about that on this journey of widowhood!
As I look back over the months I have been traveling this path, I can see the many different stages experienced. My husband and I were married for forty-eight years and worked together for the majority of that time. We were literally together twenty-four seven, so there were so many new things I had to encounter. I now know what it is like to learn to be alone. I know what it is like to make a major move early in my journey. I know what it is to learn to make decisions on my own. You see because my husband was called to his heavenly home unexpectedly, my entire life was turned upside down in a matter of minutes.
In the beginning, I was so doubtful I could ever survive alone. However, God had other plans in mind for me. As the minutes, hours, and days progressed I began to realize how much God loved me and how much He wanted to be a part of all the decisions I needed to make. My desire for Him began to increase and I soon realized, again, He has the answers to all the questions and situations I face each day. He even tells me in Psalm 23:1 (TLB) “Because the Lord is my Shepherd, I have everything I need!”
I am a very “human” person, so I continually have to be reminded of His promises. Oh how thankful I am for the many ways He continues to do that. I have a wonderful family, many friends, my church, music, but most of all His word. I know as long as I keep my eyes focused on Him, He will continue to take care of me!
Yes, for many years, I depended on my husband to help lead me, guide me, and walk beside me! We were a “normal” couple and had our ups and downs like everyone else, but we were happy and I thought we were doing OK. However, since my husband’s departure to heaven, God continues to re-affirm to me and to show me how He is there to help me with every decision I need to make.
We all go through tough times – before and after the loss of our beloved husbands. At certain times, it feels like we’ve met our end and can’t go on anymore. However, we can claim for ourselves that through Christ, God is our portion forever. No matter how weak we may be, God can carry us through because we know that God’s strength, which dwells right inside our hearts, is strength like no other.
My dear Sisters, I pray that you will let His strength carry you! Ask Him to “Lead You, Guide You, and Walk Beside You”.
Even though our lives are so different than we would ever have asked for, with Him, we can have a “new season”, even through this journey of widowhood.
Father God, sometimes it is hard to go on, but I know You care, and I trust You. I know You will keep me in perfect peace when my mind is stayed on You! Thank you for taking care of me and my dear Sisters. Amen