Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path. – Psalm 119:105
The funeral was over. A couple days had passed, and the last of the family was packing up and pulling out of the driveway. The boys and I quite literally stood at the window, watching my sister and her husband pull away…like little lost puppies. We were alone, just the five of us, for the first time since Keith had died.
Knowing I had to lead this family of mine, I took a big, deep breath. I turned and moved into the other room, bringing all the kids with me. We found an activity to do together – I think it was a funny show on television.
This new life had begun…and I had to take the lead.
I have had to stop and take a deep breath and purposefully step forward many times on this journey:
- when dealing with finances
- when determining how to parent growing teens with (at times) growing attitudes
- when having to prioritize my schedule and my kids’ activities
- when deciding how to accomplish all those tasks in life for which I used to have Keith’s support and assistance
But He has been there each and every step of the way – guiding and directing me as only He can.
In Biblical times, each traveler carried a lamp to shine the way. It covered enough of the road that they could see only their next step on those dark, Judean nights. It took trust to continue walking, just one step at a time, not knowing what might be beyond the circle of light.
As I step forward on this path – preparing for another year of homeschooling, working toward getting all my boys graduated and on the career path God desires for them, determining what my future needs to look like – God continues to be that light a step ahead of me.
All He requires of me is trust.
Trust Me that I am Sovereign. Trust Me that I love you. Trust Me that I will guide you.
Yes, Lord, I do. You have been there before and You will be there forever. Even when I cannot see the path, You can. Praise You! Praise You! Praise You!
Dear Father, thank You for ALWAYS being there, each and every step of the way. I pray my widow sisters can see and feel You on their own journeys. I pray they will come to rely on You fully as they continue to step forward in their lives. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.