by Kit Hinke
Are you reading this at two in the morning, wide awake and jarred by obsessive thoughts that carry you further and further from sleep?
I have your back, sister. Been there. How many times did I lose sleep and beg the Sandman to close my eyes for me?
I found what works. It’s learning what anxiety is, then turning it over to the God of the universe and let Him coddle you back to sleep. I know that sounds easier said than done, so in this posting, I want to walk you through how to do that using a song by Fernando Ortega. It’s here on this Youtube video. Try opening it in separate window on you browser so that you can pause the video from time to time, as I explain each stanza of the music.
So here is the song–word for word!
Jesus King of Angels, Heaven’s Light.
Who is Jesus? In Revelations, Jesus will return with armies of angels beside him, with the name written on his robe “King of Kings”. There is no authority greater than Jesus. He rules it all—including the angels who watch over us. (Psalm 91:11 explains that those of us who trust God will have angels watching over us) And then, He’s also going to be the complete light in Heaven. Rev 21:23 say.s And the city has no need of sun or moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light, and its lamp is the Lamb. Think about it—in Heaven you won’t need a sun! You won’t need a light bulb! Jesus will be the light—everywhere. He’ll be such a complete light that there will be no shadows! Imagine standing in Heaven and seeing no shadow! He is light!
Shine Your face upon this house tonight.
Now think about His light—Jesus’s face, shining right on you as you’re trying to sleep in your home, right now.
Let no evil come into my dreams.
Jesus can control evil—stop it from hurting you, scaring you.
Light of Heaven, keep me in your peace.
There are so many verses that remind us that Christ is peace. Here are two:
“Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives, do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful. (John 14:27)
“These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)
Remind me how You make dark spirits flee. And spoke Your power to the raging sea.
Think of all the times when Jesus walked the earth that someone would be talking crazy and he would simply say—“come out of him” and the dark spirits would flee. Think of the possessed man on the island of Geneseratt. Jesus asked the dark spirits in him who they were and they replied, “we are legion and don’t kill us—it’s not our time.” Demons know Who Christ is and shudder. Jesus directed them to leave the man and go into the pigs. The pigs then screamed and jumped off of a cliff! What power!
And when the disciples cried out over the raging sea, Jesus simply woke from His nap and told the sea to quiet down—and it became still. What power!
Pigs over a cliff! Raging seas that become still! What power! Do you not think, dear sister, Jesus is capable of driving dark spirits that cause your anxiety to flee? Of course He can! Call on Him!
And spoke Your mercy to a sinful man.
How many times did tax collectors like Zacheus, and prostitutes like the woman about to be stoned know they were not deserving of His attention, yet He loved them and reach out to them, and forgave them. Does He not forgive you?
Remind me Jesus, this is what I am.
If any of you, sisters, don’t realize it—it’s time to. We all need to stay humble. Even as victims in our loss, we are not innocent. Our hearts are so wanting what we want—not willing to give it up for Him. Let Christ show you that it’s okay to admit you are a sinner, and in fact, reminding you that you are is His way to bringing you into His protection! If any of you need prayer, contact us using the contact us link at the top of the page and we will contact you and pray to bring Christ into your life, or if you already know Christ, to help you with you struggle.
The universe is vast beyond the stars.
Do you get overwhelmed? Do you feel alone in this vast universe now that you’re not connected to a husband? I do sometimes, and it is that very thought of having to be alone in this universe that can keep me up at night.
But you are mindful when a sparrow falls.
This comes from Matthew 10:29-31 God knows EVERYTHING! Nothing passes His attention, and don’t you think for a moment, dear sister, that your loss, and your anxious thoughts right now, are unimportant to Him. They are. And you are!
And mindful of the anxious thoughts that find me, surround me, and bind me!
Oh, how I love this stanza in the song. I imagine anxious thoughts like chains, finding me, surrounding me, binding me. That’s when I cannot sleep! I’m trapped in those thoughts! Is that where you are right now? Remember, right now—that the Lord is mindful of these thoughts and your trap.
Because, sisters, it is a trap. The Lord commands you—Do Not Fear! Therefore, no matter what is going on that’s causing these thoughts—He wants you to trust Him and stop fearing. No matter what the outcome is, He is in control, and He knows what is best for you, for your children, for everyone involved. To the very end—the end being eternity in Heaven! Do you not believe that He will bring you through an incredible journey of purpose here on earth and then into rest and eternal joy in His presence! You may have pain and suffering here, but anxiety and fear is not the pain and suffering He allows—it’s your choice! You can endure—you can have peace! Trust Him!
Usually, when anxious thoughts bind me, I can cast them out by remembering that every anxious thought is based on a lie. If I’m anxious because I’m alone, that’s a lie. I can have real unity with my Heavenly Father, which will give me far stronger identity than I ever had as a wife. I am not alone!
With all my heart I love You, Sovereign Lord. Tomorrow let me love You even more! And rise to speak the goodness of Your name! Until I close my eyes and sleep again!
Sisters, there is power in speaking the goodness of God’s name continually! Just look at the psalms written by David. No matter that strife he was under, he continually praised God and trusted God! You can too, and the more you focus on His goodness and his will, the more easily He will lead you out of the mire of despondency and into His light!
The song now ends with a poignant prayer that I lift right now for you who are reading this and wondering how you will finally get rest.
Dear Jesus King of Angels, Heaven’s light. Hold my sister’s hand and keep her through this night.